Freak Girl Online Diary--Chapter 3

Chapter 3: Hardships and Heartaches but Happiness Too

Since the day we moved out; We felt free from the bounds of Oren Donovan and my mother, Valerie, changed back to her maiden name eventually. Now she is Valerie Jones. My grandmother, Ginger Donovan, was no too happy about the divorce for Catholics aren't supposed to divorce. In retrospect; Myself, mother, Harry, and Jimmy weren't really Catholics (I tried to think I was Catholics but I thought that didn't accept me too well--considering how some Catholic schools have issues with assault or something else) but we were devoted Christians. We don't go to church. But we do pray and live in a way that God wants us to live. And going to church with my father was no picnic for me: My father was always listening to the sermons and praying, weeping like he was in shame and asking the Lord for forgiveness. And the next minute after church; he's driving and cursing to all the reckless drivers, driving too fast. It was a complete disaster. That's another reason why I don't want to go to church, not because of the noises no, but because of my father. Here he was praying in church and then the next, he is swearing his head off at drivers while going so fast. My God, you should've seen it. I wonder what anyone would think if they saw my father like this. We couldn't stand Dad for his behavior. His manipulations. We were all so sick of it, so that's why we left. But then, I still suffered panic attacks and it got worse for me. So, what happened next? Well, remember that new principal that helped my family and I? Her daughter, who has the exact same name as her, helped me out. I talk to her a little, she got me into this therapy session known as 21 Seconds. I was unsure at first but decided to give it a try. The 21 Seconds was a way to coax with panic attacks and turning fears into excitement. To my amazement, I started to think this was the best thing for me. Would like to hear? Here it goes: The first thing in the 21 Seconds is that you must observe your fear, embrace it, demand more from your anxiety, and then finally trust yourself. There were setbacks so nobody's perfect right?

In 2012 of the summer; I went to a job program and landed myself in JC Penney 5 Star Outlet in Sawgrass Mills Mall. I met this nice, black skinned woman who was my mentor. At JC Penney; I worked in the back of the store. I took clothes which were in packages, put price tags on them, and hang up the clothes nicely. Then the guys, who also worked alongside me, came to take the clothes on the wheeled railed thing where we hang the clothes. To me, it felt great to finally work at a place. There were some good times there, like going to lunch on breaks or joking a little. But we managed to get stuff done. In time, we were assigned to work in the store. Y'know, organize clothes that were hanging up, some things that need organizing. That was my favorite part of the job. I worked from June, July, until August. We were given an award, each of us. A paper certificate. And offered cake, one chocolate and one vanilla. It felt so good to be awarded for something you accomplished. Remember that black skinned woman who was mentoring us a little? Well, she became my teacher. I made the suggestion, I felt bad for her because she said she was having a hard time finding a job so I said that my school was looking for some teachers and I guess that's what happened. In time when she became my teacher; but over this year I was misbehaving and got on her bad side. 

She thought I didn't have the Lord within me. She wanted to take me to church but that wasn't it. She just didn't understand. My behavior worsened as I one time escaped home and walked blocks from there. Mother and Jimmy found me, I tried to apologize but I knew it was too late. My stuff was taken, I yelled at my own mother, I got hit repeatedly but I knew I deserved it. I was making such a hissy fit that the police woman came and I managed to calm down. Knowing my behavior was getting stronger; I was assigned to take TKD classes after school. I didn't want to but I knew I had to get some help. Being in the TaeKwon-Do center for after schools for me, it wasn't so bad at first but then as time progressed, I begin to hate it. The boys didn't acknowledge my existance. The girls were really prissy, dramatic, and mean to me. And all of them were like little kindergartners to sixth graders. Some got in trouble and got really upset. Some were brats who pestered me, it was one heck of a nightmare. I didn't say anything to my mother because she wouldn't think of taking me out. I myself was afraid to leave for I'd be my bad self again and had to remember to have self control. My TKD instructor was never there a lot, he had always leave to do some errands while the kids acted crazy and someone had to watch them. It was the loudest place on the planet. I hated it, I always called Mom, made an excuse of saying I didn't feel well. I didn't want to train here or any where else anymore. I simply hated this. By the end of the year, I didn't take TaeKwon-Do after school classes anymore--which that was a relief for me. And that black skinned female teacher of mine wasn't my teacher anymore so I had a new one. I wasn't relieved that she was gone, she had to find another job but in the end, I didn't bad-mouthed about her. She taught me a few things. Even though sometimes she was harsh and a little bit wicked and misunderstood on my auditory sensitives; I'm not angry with her however I hope she understands someday. 

My new teacher was much more understanding than the other. She always knew and was very caring of me. I must've brought her a lot of trouble but I knew I had to be cured in time so I can adapt more into the world and never be hypersensitive to the sounds again. Empathy. What is it? It is the ability to understand and share the feelings of another. That is a thing I need to work on most. But also, I need to be more mature. On one hand of the person I'm empathetic to is my mom. My mother was going through some problems with the school: That principal I mention? Well, she gotten kind of mean, paranoid, and hypocritical as mother stopped being friends with her. My mother couldn't stand her ignorance and her negative attitude, putting down my mother. All the idiotic teachers (although some were considered 'bright and one of the best'), such as those who give tons of work to their students that do not make sense. Ugh! One was demanding of her payment and my little brother doesn't like her as his teacher. I know it's none of my business but let me tell you why I am writing this. We all go through hardships and dealing with people in our lives. Mother doesn't want me to know but I wouldn't tell a soul. Hell, I'm not saying any names of who is who. What they look like or anything such as that. But she talk about it over the phone with someone else as she was upset about it. I didn't want to know I was listening, The reason why I am in her business is because I want to be more empathetic to her. Once I was very selfish; and my mother became upset. She said, "You have to start being compassionate toward others. Not everything is about you!" I know eavesdropping is not the best thing for me. I guess. I just don't want to be like my dad, who was a selfish and vile man. A total jerk. 

My little brother, Jimmy, was having a hard time with my father Oren. Oren is a jerk really: He tell Jimmy that he won't say anything bad about me, Harry, or my mother Valerie. But what does he do? He does it eventually, always yelling at such ridiculous things. Thinking my mother told Harry to lie to my dad about her being asleep. Or the things that happened before Jimmy was born. Seriously, why did he need to hear this bullcrap from him? Jimmy was trying to be nice to Dad but he just didn't want to see him or deal with his fricking stupidity. His smoking of cigarettes (Gross!). He and my mother debated, I could hear them (OK, I shut off my noise machine to listen! Sorry...) discussing but also arguing over about my dad. Finally one month later, Mother thought that my little brother needed help and decide to get him therapy. Jimmy didn't want to go back to Dad's place but there will be some conditions there. Jimmy didn't want to do it however he had no choice. I felt bad for him. But I've been getting on his nerves lately. He always gets angry at me. It was like Dad almost again.

In time of my progress; I felt my auditory sensitives were worsening. I also was going through repetitive behavior compulsion. My brothers and I have a relationship that seems difficult: We like to insult each other. Anytime I am being cheerful and happy, they just be dry and sarcastically mean. Whenever they are happy, I get all mean back just as they did to me. This was wrong, my mother asked us why are we being mean to each other. In retrospect, none of us have a clue. That's when I found out that I was going through this phase known as repetitive compulsion. The answer I knew, repeating the same things from the past over and over again. Going down the same route as my father did. I knew, I didn't want to go down that way. If I wanted my dreams to come true; I had to cure myself. I need to find cognitive behavioral therapy and sound therapy. I hated myself for being this way. I am not going to be the same as Dad was before. Never. Would I ever go down the path of denial like he did. I refuse, I would try to remember to have self control and get stronger every day. 

I couldn't promise it because I already made promises to myself. I want to be better, I don't feel so strong now. My main goal was to be a perfect, a completely mentally sane and sound young lady. I don't want to change too much, I just want to make improvements. That's all I'm doing. But in my happiness of learning to sew, volunteering at Monkey Joe's and Walgreens, I felt like a responsible young lady. But I knew deep down I didn't feel this way. I had to surpass this shell of what I am and improve of the girl I want to be. A sane young lady. Madness of the sounds, madness of repeating the things my father did before. I will be me, nobody else but me and I will get help soon. 

That puts an end of my chapter, would you like to hear about my graduation? My future? Turn the next page and find out. 

Phenomenon Serendipity--Profiles

Briar Devlin 

Name: Briar Devlin

Hair: Chocolate brown/dark brunette, golden as Valkyrie

Eyes: Brown

Nicknames: The Freak Girl, Tragic Rose, Brie, Dawn Star, Thorn Rose, Sleeper,

Powers: Telekinesis, clairvoyance, telepathy, absorption of powers and memory through skin contact.

Fairytale reference: Sleeping Beauty

Her personality: Briar Devlin is a witty, strong, beautiful, smart, and kind hearted young lady. She has a good sense of wise cracking at times but she can be a matured young lady.

Briar hates fighting between comrades, it is a reminder of how she was shaken by how her parents used to fight so Briar becomes fierce and peaceable, causing truces with her powers as she will not tolerate any battles between allies and friends. Briar also has a little good singing voice since she used to take voice lessons but she didn’t take them anymore because of her father’s immature behavior and how he once argued with her voice coach about advancing her. Briar is optimistic, despite in her struggles in her past and what happened in that ‘Grad Bash’ incident at the movie theatre. Despite her calm nature, she has PTSD and has more of a hot blooded, feisty when her friends’ killer is mentioned and how she blow off steam at the killer’s father, who was grief stricken and upset at how much abuse he took from his son.

Briar’s past: Briar grew up seeing her mother being abused by her father and how she had been abused herself. It came to the point where both mother and daughter couldn’t take it anymore and they moved out. But it doesn’t end there. Briar made 12 friends at her new school and begins to bond with them. On their last day of their high school; it goes awry when a shooter came and took away her best friends. Their deaths was all she witnessed. It was the most shocking to see their deaths in the theatre they were at to see the new action film. As grad bash’s fun dream turned out to be a nightmare.

Girl trio: Briar is in a trio team sometimes with Chloe Birchhart and Brandilyn ‘Randi’ Kellan because it is similar with Eren and his friendship with Armin and Mikasa as well as Gintoki with his friends, Shipachi and Kagura. Chloe comes from a family of a cult and her adolescence somehow attract a relative who develops an interbreeding for her but Chloe doesn’t share the same feelings for this person but it caused problems for the cult she was in. Chloe escaped when she learned that they wanted to sacrifice her to their ‘god’. And gorgeous Randi came from a family who were incredibly beautiful but their house was burnt and they got separated. Randi is determined to find her family. Like Briar; Chloe and Randi went through trauma of their own as they too have PTSD. Chloe worked as an assistant teacher but a shooter came in and killed the people she once worked for. And Randi was at the mall until gunmen came in and started shooting. Randi was lucky that she hid, pretended to be dead however she was shaken up and felt guilty for those that weren’t so lucky.

Briar the Sleeping Beauty: “Briar? Sounds like the fairytale, Sleeping Beauty.” was all people would say. Her name Briar is another name for the princess, Briar Rose. Her mother admits that she named her daughter that as soon as she was born because she wore a rosy attire when she was an infant. And how she looked beautiful was sleeping. The fairytale is a metaphor for her; she falls into madness, related to how the princess falls asleep, because of PTSD. But she somehow is ‘awaken’ thanks to the friends she makes and making her more like herself again. But she is still ‘asleep’ and needs to be awaken again or she might ‘fall unconscious’ again into the melancholic madness she has been in.

Her relationship with her recruits: Briar is quite fond of Ichigo because of his personality and how much power he has. She finds annoyance in Natsu’s bickering with either Rin, or anyone else. She scares them with her telekinesis and makes the others tremble in respect for her. Briar has a strong bond with Eren, because of his rage and devastation, even recklessness. The others on this team jokingly says that Briar must have been ‘inspired’ by Eren. Which is shown to be true. Yet Ichigo and the guys fear that Briar spends a lot of time with Eren a little too much because she becomes darker and darker. However, Briar does that for she doesn’t want to say this to Natsu or anyone else because she feels like she’s a ‘dark cloud’ to anyone else’s ‘sunshine’ and she doesn’t want to be around that person if she’s depressed and needs to pour her heart out.

The half-sister she didn’t know about: Katrina Salvatore is Briar’s half-sister, she used to be the most popular girl of her high school and the meanest. Her popular, haughty attitude had caused one girl to self-murdered herself and two boys to cause a massacre.

Inspirations and ideas: Originally, I wanted Briar to come across Lamia Scale and Captain Hitsugaya before becoming leader to Naruto, Ichigo, and the other Big Damn Heroes but decides to go against it. I changed it and found the right storyline for her. The loss of her friends was powerful for me because it was loosely based off The Aurora Theatre Massacre. It was devastated for me and I pretended that I was Briar and those 12 people I pretended that they were the nicest people that I knew. So, that’s where Briar and her horrendous past came from.

Briar actually comes by each of the crew and forms a team. Her powers are cited on different characters: Carrie White, Claire Bennett of Heroes (her powers are kind of squeamish to watch), Rogue of X Men, the telepathy came from different sources:

Briar is known as ‘Freak Girl’ because of the different powers she is reequipped with and how crazy it is to see how she has that much powers. The thing is that there is a reason behind that and it is her disturbed past and how she has so much anger towards the people that hurt her, so much rage that she is willing to take it out on that these are what these powers are used for—Retribution. 

Briar’s reunion with her father is like Sleeping with the Enemy meets Carrie: Her father is willing to get both his ex-wife and daughter back and almost tries to kill her however Briar uses her powers to confront him. She claims that this is her destiny and how she is here to stay and he cannot stop her.

Chloe. I originally made her into a paranoid, skeptical young lady but I changed it. Her appearance was based off Agnes Bruckner. She was her dark nature was inspired by Silent Hill’s Alessa Gillespie and her powers were inspired by Teen Titans’ Raven. Her trauma of losing the people she worked for and ever known were loosely based off the Newton Elementary School Shooting. If you thought the Aurora Massacre was bad, this one was horrible too. Chloe’s past of being part of a cult and escaping came from Rose McGowan, who came from a cult in Italy and escaped with her family to America. Randi’s appearance was based off an Australian model name Miranda Kerr. Miranda was a young and beautiful model, I thought she’d be perfect for being Randi. It was awesome! Randi’s trauma was loosely based off another tragedy, The Mall Shooting in Africa. It was horrible seeing so much cruelty and horror. All those people…It was so sad, it really was. I am not trying be insulted but I thought those three tragedies inspired me to dedicate to those that are in shock of all that is happened to them and to give them hope. That’s what this is about in this crossover, tribute and inspiration.

The inspirations of Katrina came from the sequel film of Carrie. The Rage: Carrie 2. But under circumstances, it’s a switch! Kat is popular and mean but she becomes the atoner later and tortured for the actions that she caused to those that she bullied. Now she is trying to start over and bring her apologies to those that she hurt. Kind of like Sue Snell almost. Katrina was originally going to be the main antagonist turned good in the crossover project. But I decided to change it. Katrina goes through trials and tragedies as she tries to find light at the end of the dark tunnel. Another inspiration for her was Pilgrim’s Progress, where a man goes on a journey to relief his burden, save his family, and search for Heaven. I thought it was good. Katrina had to relieve her burden, save herself from damnation, and to find her true peace once more. There was some bumps on the road. A song was a third and final inspiration for Kat and it was Katy Perry’s song, “Wide Awake”.

Maggie Wolf

Name: Margaret Wolf

Hair: Red

Eyes: Sea green

Power: Haemokinetic Constructs

Nicknames: Maggie, Mags, Red, Red Hot Riding Hood, Big Bad She Wolf, and Lady Lumberjack

Species: Human, Valkyrie hybrid

Fairytale reference: Red Riding Hood

Personality: Known as Red Hot Riding Hood, Big Bad She Wolf, and Lady Lumberjack; she wields the powers of blood, or haemokinetic constructs. Maggie makes herself bleed enough to face her enemies in combat battle. Maggie is a violent, blood thirsty, sadistic, seductive, and high self-esteem but she remains a gold heart to her friends and allies. Underneath all that blood lust is a vulnerable girl with a troubled past and how she has a hatred towards ‘pig men’ because of the way she was tortured and left for dead. Maggie has a tendency to wear red, because she is the ‘Red Riding Hood’ surrounding herself with ‘wolves’ and how she is also the lumberjack and how she has to eliminate wolves.

Maggie’s past: Maggie started off as a runaway teen who worked as an exotic dancer so she can start a normal life and find love. But it all came crumbling down when she was attacked while entertaining at the club for some drunk guys one night. She was attacked while walking home by the same men! Crippled of her usually self; Maggie begs to be killed however she is discovered by an Amazon brigade type team and was trained to be an assassin and went back to kill the men that had destroyed her! Maggie quit from her life as a dancer and decides to find something different for a change. Such as walking down a thick of woods, meet wolves, and to taste this delicious liquid called blood.

Bella Venezia ‘B.V.’ Jonquil: Maggie’s best friend, Bella Venezia (Or B.V. for short). She was tortured by males like her and has freaky powers. She is a tranquil, mysterious, and alluring young lady. She is referred to the fairytale, “Beauty and the Beast”. Although she’s beautiful, she is also beastly with her powers she was bestowed upon. B.V. has dark purple hair piled on her head in a messy ponytail. Her powers were an inspiration cited of a character from Soul Calibur, Voldo. Her attacks bend and twist her body in unnatural ways, making her a tremendously unstable combater. That is what makes B.V. ‘beastly’ as she has quick reflexes and enhanced agility, better than anyone else. Maggie sees her as more than a friend but a bodyguard that she cannot do without sometimes. The two girls are like sisters and despite Maggie’s lust for blood; B.V. is shown to be unafraid but concerns for her friend’s sanity.

Her relationship with her crew: Everything was going well when she met these guys and things changed for the better. You could say that these guys are her ‘wolves’ or ‘hunters’ while she is the one with the red hood. She acts like a big sister figure to Yamazaki, Connie and Sasha, Maggie is amused by their mischief but she actually is impressed by Sasha’s badass archery combat and pities Connie for the loss of his mother. Towards Okita and Hijikita; she has a bit of an annoyance towards them, mainly it is because of Okita’s hatred and wanting to humiliate him. Maggie is trying to be the only sane person and try to get them to work together, despite their fierce loyalty to Isao Kondo and differences. She gets along with Sting, Rogue, Ikkaku, Yumichika and Yachiru. Maggie also gets along with Kondo, Zaraki, Frosch, Lester, as well as the others of Shinsengumi. She finds Zaraki scary, Kondo is eccentric at times, Yumichika can be a ‘blow hard’ egoist, Ikkaku is hilarious when he is played for laughs in Connie and Sasha’s jokes about his bald head. Maggie is taken aback by Matsudaira Katakuriko, who is a violent nutcase and his behavior. Maggie gets along with HOMRA after a rough start. But please, keep Maggie away from these guys because if she is ever around them then….SHIT is about to get real! Yeah, really…REALLY REAL! You have no idea……:-/ An influence that is deadly….

Sexy and scary: Wearing skimpy outfits and killing enemies are sure a nice contrast for Maggie. Her iconic outfit is a red bra-like red top, matching short skort (skirt shorts), and heels. But she usually wears other modest clothes such as a red short sleeved shirt with crimson leather pants. She wears clothes that resemble red such as fuschia, red orange, or orang red. Her sanity slippage comes from the berserk button of how a girl would get hurt by a man or a girl denies of being hurt and really is being abused. It is a tempter trigger for Maggie has been there and she suffered to where she is today. Maggie has PTSD so she doesn’t want to flirt for she will give the guys the wrong idea and it won’t be good for her. Maggie has a new theory: She doesn’t hate ALL men, she finds some that are not so much like jerks and sick demented pigs like the ones in her life. Look out boys, she’s in disguise and is coming out of her closet.

Mentor and friends—Amazon Brigade: Maggie’s mentor was the street smart and voluptuous Valora. Her friends are Candice--a friendly, rebellious, and feisty young lady. Dahlia--sweet, upbeat, and innocently ditzy girl but behind the face of cuteness is a psychotic, depressed, and angry girl. Tigris--a tough as nails and sassy chica. And finally, Pomona--a cold hearted and harsh Russian woman. What Valora and the other girls have in common of their Amazon Brigade group is that they hate men! However discovering Maggie and B.V. have made friends with different kinds of guys; they eventually defrost for these men are more likely to be not so much as pigs but eccentric for their tastes. These girls have powers of their own: Dahlia has the power of fire, Tigris can control of any reptiles such as lizards and snakes. Pompona has enhanced strength and has projection lasers as combat or shields. She also has the ability of earth. And Candice can control air, the way where she wants the wind to blow from.

Her new powers: Maggie develops a red mark on her back and shoulder, which comes to life somehow by her opponents' blood splatter all over her body. The blood sinks into her skin, she feels an arousal feeling and let out a sensual gasp. Embarrassed; she covered her mouth with her hand! The mark on her back and shoulder comes to life and becomes an exoskeleton to protect herself of any of enemy's attacks!

Inspirations: The creations and inspirations for Maggie came from the fairytale Red Riding Hood. Natalia Kill’s song “Wonderland” had a line that says, ‘I’m not Red Riding Hood but I think the wolves have got me.’ I thought that would be a good metaphor, where Maggie is Red Riding Hood and the ‘wolves’ made her into who she is today. The second inspiration I used was the 2011 indie film, Cherry Bomb, which involved an exotic dancer who takes revenge on the men that had attacked her. That was one that I cited for Mags. The third is rape and revenge however I wanted to get ‘crap passed the radar’ by not using rape and doing something different. Maggie hates guys but she meets men who are not jerks and develops an inspiration to be The Wolf. And on a light hearted note; Maggie’s tendency to kill came from the 2009 film starring Megan Fox: Jennifer’s Body. Yeah, I know. It was sooo gross but it was perfect for Maggie to be sexy and deadly…Without the body parts half eaten, right? Further in the crossover; I wanted to make Maggie have her own perspective. Her true origin is that she is half human, half Manifestation and her mother was an experimented type one. Maggie was raised by a family who eventually neglected her. Maggie’s powers developed into symbiotic constructs of blood, this inspiration came from the Spider Man villain name Carnage.

Maggie gets blood splatter from the enemies she takes down and the blood absorbs into her skin, making her more invincible. That idea came to me from Mortal Kombat, from the blood thirsty Skarlet. But what happens if Maggie absorbed so much blood? Ding-ding, it hit me! And I got this from one of my favorite comic books of the heroine name Arana (Anya Corazon). She had a tattoo on her shoulder but it turned out to be a symbiotic exoskeleton. So, that’s everything came to place: Maggie Wolf’s powers become more advanced, with much blood she absorbed; she uses this blood to power up a Manifestation exoskeleton shield against her enemies. Wow! This is so cool. Things are getting more interesting. Maggie is becoming more of a cute, troubled girl. Yup. Some guys wonder if she is mentally sane or not, sometimes they’re afraid to find out what’s going on in that INSANE head of hers. Quite scary huh, this is played for laughs though. Right? Ain’t I right?

Tilda Oxford

Name: Matilda ‘Tilda’ Oxford

Hair: Brown hair with silvery blonde highlights, it becomes whitish blue when it comes to ice and water

Eyes: Icy/Ocean blue

Powers: Water Manipulation, Ice Manipulation

Nicknames: Tillie, Ice Princess, Maiden from the Deep,

Species: Human, Valkyrie hybrid

Fairytale reference: The Snow Queen

About her: Tilda Oxford wants to be a singer, she wrote music and jammed out on her guitar. Her family were very supportive of her but one night; her parents were killed and her sister was missing! A few years later; Tilda meets a 15 year old girl who claims to be her niece as Tilda is tearfully overjoyed to discover her sister’s alive. Tilda is a sarcastic, sassy, strong hearted, and determined girl. Besides her frosty shell of her cold demeanor (No puns here), she has a defrost side of kindness and compassion. She even is understanding and empathetic once she gets to know the person. Tilda was determined to avenge her family by finding her parents’ killer, she may not have seen his face but remembered hearing his horrible laugh: A falsetto laugh which sounded so high pitched and creepy to her. Tilda hates being called ‘Tillie’ because her mother used to call her that and only she is allow to call her that. Tilda learns that she can control the depths of water and the frozen zero of ice. She has retraceable claws sink into her hands.

Singing dreams: Tilda finally got her big break and begin to record in a music studio. Her vocals are soprano with a hint of trance like to it. She recorded a version of “Reload” by John Martin. She even performed Krewella’s “Live for the Night” and later, performed a ballad cover of Halestorm’s “Break In” and Nickelback’s “How You Remind Me”. Tilda begin to write her own music, she writes one called “Means So Much to Me”. She claims she even did other covers such as Katy Perry’s “Dark Horse”, Muse’s “Supermassive Black Hole”, Avril Lavigne’s “Complicated” & “Sk8er Boi”, and Evanescence’s “What You Want”. Tilda is not big on lip syncing, except when she is having fun a little. But on stage? No, absolutely not. Tilda Oxford, you will remember her name!

Her relationship with her recruits: Tilda gets along well with Captain Hitsugaya, Jura, but she was pretty skeptical and imtimidated by Gray and Lyon however she manages to be defrosting once she is shown the ropes of ice wielding. Tilda is shown some annoyance towards Toby because of his yelling and always chastised him to use his ‘bedroom voice’ because she feels that his shouting. She feels flabberghasted of Juvia’s whimsical behavior and her daydreams of her crush, Gray. Tilda felt perplexed by Levi’s cold demeanor and felt he had no feelings but once Levi offers to help her take down the man who killed her parents; Tilda was touched as she was so overjoyed by his kindness that she embraced him. Somehow Tilda reminds Levi of his deceased lieutenant, Petra, because of her determination and her sassy attitude. Tilda holds great respect for Sherry and Yuka. She also is a big sister type to Chelia because of her klutziness.

Tilda’s family: The niece of Tilda Oxford; she was the weapon of Nevermore. Shadoe is now atoning her sins but she was forced to kill people and she was shocked afterwards. She is diagnosed with a spectrum disorder but the people at Nevermore treat her like she was an animal to abuse. Her cousin, Effie, is a dark version of Shadoe and wants world destruction and her mother, Cecelia, to have it too. Shadoe and Effie has advanced abilities of agility, speed, strength, and tracking. Cecelia has the power to teleport from one place to another. Almost like the Wink, a super-villain from Marvel. Cecelia has telekinesis, telepathy, and illusion inducement.

Inspirations: Originally I was going to make Tilda into a Cheshire Cat like girl with a hint of Catwoman. But I changed it around a little bit. I thought it was awesome chemistry to see Tilda use her powers alongside these kinds: Gray, Lyon, and Captain Hitsugaya are ice wielders while Juvia is a water wielder. The fairytale, The Snow Queen, got me inspired for Tilda. Many music artists that inspired me for Tilda are: Avril Lavigne, Katy Perry, Amy Lee of Evanescence, and also Sky Ferreira and Marina Diamondis of Marina and the Diamonds. I wanted to create Tilda into not just an Ice Princess and Water Maiden, I want her to have a voice and to sing.  Another inspiration that I cited on was the Disney film, Frozen. Tilda has complete control of her powers, unlike Elsa, but she is also much like Anna for her humor and cuteness but also has clarity, beauty like Elsa too. I also cited many things for Tilda’s water powers: Katara from The Last Airbender and H2O: Just Add Water, a series about three girls who become mermaids and how they have to control the different types of water: Freeze, Mold, and Boil. Shadoe, Effie, and Cecelia ‘Celia’ were inspired from other media: Hanna—an action thriller about a young girl who has the mind of a soldier and she is being pursued by a woman who is trying to kill her. Mama--a creepy film about two sisters who were adopted after being discovered one day but their mother’s haunt comes and things get more intense and scary.  F.E.A.R., where Shadoe is kind of like Point Man; Effie is like Paxton Fettel, and Cecelia ‘Celia’ was like Alma; but there was a little differences. Unlike Paxton and Alma; Effie and Celia eventually atoned their sins but they must prove that they are redeemed by helping people. And while they do that; their eyes are opened after being shut because they can see that some people are not so cruel after all.

Sylver Eden

Name: Sylver Eden

Hair: Brunette with blonde highlights

Eyes: Dark brown

Powers:

Nicknames: Jubs, Freshy, Bubbles, Strange Girl, Alice, Daydream Believer, Missy Mitty, Dona Quioxte, Sylva, Trouble,

Fairytale reference: Alice in Wonderland

Personality: Sylver Eden is an idealistic dreamer; she is hyperactive, bubbly, adorable, geeky, cheerful, and eccentric young lady. Humorously, she is funny and can be a ditz. But when she is around new people; she is shy and nervous.Sylver is diagnosed of Aspergers Syndrome because she sometimes make eye contact, is hypersensitivity to some sounds that bothered her. She finds this a ‘trauma’ for her and withdraws herself into her ‘fantasy land’. In her diagnosis, it says some with Aspergers are apathetic but Sylver has empathy no matter what. She is a highly functioned girl who is polite and intelligent.

The petite you cannot defeat, the girl, who seems younger than she looks: A running gag shows that Sylver is young looking but she is in her early 20’s. This is played for laughs, though, because of the reactions of others. She is amused of these people’s facial expressions and likes hearing their disbelief. It actually is something that she likes because she likes to surprise people.

Breaking the cutie/Beware the Silly, Nice, and Quiet One: Although Sylver is nice, silly, and at times quiet; She is feared for her temporarily insanity and also her upset-deranged behavior when it comes to loudness. She is out of line and says things before she thinks. She then weeps about it for what she has done and doesn’t get over it until she is comforted. Sylver believes that her behavior is more of a ‘nutcase’ and compares herself to the Hamlet character Ophelia. Which is true: Her hair is a mess. She sings to herself in a cute and creepy tone. She becomes violent however she switches between happy and sadness, almost like bipolar. 

Brother and friends: Sylver has a teen younger brother, who is funnier than her and wittier. His name is Bruce Eden, he is a hyperactive and charmiastic but he displays maturity as Sylver does too…Kind of hard to say. Bruce is entertaining and quite satirical at times. But he cares for his family dearly; He has a friend name Wilhelm. Wilhelm is afraid of Sylver for he believes she’s a ‘demon’. But he is the only one who is nicer to her! Wilhelm believes that the crazy women are ‘demons’ which is played for laughs. Sylver finds Bruce hysterical than any comedian: Bruce used to make her laugh when he was younger. Her puppy: Chubbye is a Shih Tzu puppy and the Eden Family’s dog. He is a dopey, adorable, happy, independent dog that is resentful to Sylver but a best friend to Bruce and the Eden siblings’ mother, Laurleen. He sometimes wears a diaper for a little while before taking it off because it’ll give him a rash if he wears it long enough.

Inspirations and ideas: Sylver Eden is based off myself. I am a Genki Girl (It’s Japanese for ‘hyperactive’), I can be a ditz too and an idealist. Going to my La La Land. I also have elements of Alice in Wonderland and some quotes: “Curiouser and curiouser.”, “Mad as a hatter”, and “We’re all mad here.” Sylver’s inspiration comes from Miss Montana, otherwise known as Alexis Wineman, who is a beautiful girl that is diagnosed with Aspergers and that was really cool to hear but to me, she looked normal and I was surprised by how she looked and seemed the model type. But hey, looks can been deceiving so it was shock to hear Miss Montana is an ‘autie’. (Hope I’m not offending her, I admired her greatly.) Sylver is a mad dreamer but al she ever want is friends. She is this mysterious girl which no one sees the real her because of all of her insecurities she has and is afraid that no man would love her for the way she is. Sylver takes interest in the ‘most dark hearts’ kind because she can see their pain and agony as she wants to be that type of friend. So, I’m quite like her and I want to put ‘me’ in here because of my lovely fixation for anime. And I have seen this girl, Briana Moran, she has been seeing anime heroes and she writes pleadingly of a crossover a lot.

Bruce Eden is based off my younger brother, Jimmy. And Wilhelm is based off his friend, Bobby. Bobby used to be scared of me, which is played for laughs, however he isn’t any more too much as he now doesn’t mind me acting so-called ‘creepy’. Jimmy was so funny with random things he said and how he acts hilariously crazy at times. I would try so hard to not pee my pants but Jimmy is just too silly! He also does go crazy on Harry and pull pranks on him like scaring him hysterically to me. Chubbye is based on my dog. He is just so ‘dorky’ and cute. He always barks at newcomers and can get excited whenever my mother or my little brother comes home. And he is more of an indoor pup as he never goes to the bathroom outside and usually pees on everything. But he’s SO cute! A flaw about my dog is that he’s got a chronic condition that relates to his allergies. Poor thing needs to take his meds like every day. And what’s really sad is that he always growls at me sometimes whenever I try to put the diaper on so he doesn’t pee on any of the kitchen. Or try to put his leash on.

Twisted Faeries--CANCELLED :'(

To my fans, 

It gives me great sadness that I am cancelling my stories, Twisted Faeries. It's not because I hate it, never! It's just I somehow lost interest in it. Now I'm looking for something better than just writing dark, modern fairy tales. I want to think outside the box, I know you'll miss this series but look on the bright side, I hope you are enjoying Spittoon & Uranometria. Yeah, sucks that TF is ending yes? Well, there's a new beginning for other future projects. I hope you guys can forgive me for this, times are changing. You'll understand, right? Anyways, see you later! I'm off to write some more stuff.

Sincerely, Katherine Donovan

Schadenfreude--Short Stories by KATDON

These are short stories, which contain stories that are personal. A loose singer who has no shame of what she does is inappropriate. Second that funniest home videos that aren't so funny, they seem so cruel. Third is where somebody hates Yo Mama jokes. And lastly, is about how annoying people can be but then you realize that you annoying people too. Hope you guys like it! --KatDon

Floozy Bimbo

Molly Malcom, that name makes you want to cringe. Who wouldn't cringe at that name? Molly has been doing a lot of things that shock people and also disgusts them but her fans love her despite all that. Which is a lot of people are left to scratch their heads over. The most disturbing is when she dances in a sexually provocative manner, which it involves thrusting hip movements and a low squatting stance. Her wearing suggestive clothing that involves baring midriff, no pants, shorty shorts, and ones that showed her exposed stump. It was like she was a prostitute. 

And she admits that her songs are about drugs. Molly wasn't like this: She was once a saccharine, cutesy pop princess alter ego--Golly Molly. There was a sitcom about Golly Molly's town  however it ended as Molly wanted to focus her career on music and left her acting career behind. While working in the studio; Molly meets a lot of R&B artists and rappers: Al Capone, Scottie Kane, Alice B. Toklas, Back Jack, Big Harry, Crazy Eddie, Doosey, Don Jem, Heroina, and Dr. Feelgood. Molly and Scottie got to know each other better as Scottie got to know her parents, Adam and Candy. Molly got to know Scottie’s family too. There was Angel ‘Angie’, Bamba, Bale, Baby T, Bernice, Billy H., Cecil, Chippy, Cloud, Cory, and Dice. Molly made friends with a lot of dark skinned, sassy girls too such as Coco, Scottie’s sister. 

There was also Mari Juana, Barbie, Belladonna, Angola, Bo, Hera, Bickie, and three aunts—Nora, Mary, and Hazel. Molly calls them her ‘Black Beauties’, they are part of Molly’s performances. One of Molly’s performances was how she was centered against a backdrop of the Black Beauties as her back up dancers The Black Beauties seem to have been chosen on the basis of their thicker bodies, and one of them, the extremely tall woman, was subjected to fondling and a simulated rim job. It was beyond disturbing. The horror, the absolute, repulsive horror. She has some troubled suitors—Gasper, George, Cid, Henry, Arnold, Dooley, and Henry. At an award show; Molly used some sort of foam finger for inappropriate uses. The only question is why would her fans still support her? Apparently Molly is a bad influence on some people…Define, some people. While she is not performing onstage, Molly does all kinds of bad stuff: She steals things from stores. One time, she went shopping and saw a bear attired top. What does she do? She goes and steals it! She smokes cigarettes, marijuana, and she snorts cocaine & coke. She drinks alcohol, or poison as she likes to call it. Any kind of alcohol—Beer, wine, rum, vodka, champagne (she mixes it with drugs), Peppermint schnapps, and she has house parties, where they do bizarre things. It is hinted that Molly is bisexual for she has kissed her Black Beauties. 

Funny Home Videos—Yeah, Define Funny

Fuuny Home Videos—they are a long-running television series that features home video clips sent in by viewers, the show can be considered the proto-Reality Show concept, as it existed through audience interaction. At the end of most episodes, the producers pick three clips for the studio audience to vote on for prizes of $2,000, $3,000, and $10,000; the big money winner goes on to compete with other weekly winners for a $100,000 prize later. They say if you wish to send in your own funniest home videos then you should send stuff that is funny and original. But lately, it’s not funny at all. You see, every time the joke in a video is an elderly person falling or getting hurt, or a child. Rather grating to see a toddler run over their infant sibling, then have the audience laugh uproariously. Heck! You could say any time a video shows anyone getting hurt, which is most of the time. One show had a musical montage of angry/crying small kids angrily shoving other small kids over, usually causing the other kids to cry. It was a bit jarring to hear the studio audience laughing at the clips. 

There was one clip where a kid was crying because he had diarrhea, while the mom was just filming and laughing; only the family dog was being nice to the poor kid. The worst part? This one won the $10,000 prize. Another video of a kid who accidentally took a restraunt's reusable cup home in the car and his mother was recording him and telling him she's going to report him to the cops or something similar and, no surprise, it won at the end of the episode it was shown in. Another clip where a kid's parents give him a small cake for getting good grades, only for them to reveal it's actually a toilet paper roll covered in frosting. The child understandably cries his eyes out while his parents act like jerks, all while the audience is laughing. The clips with people vomiting are just cruel; the person is sick and they are being recorded and humiliated on TV while the audience just laughs. The voters on this show really need to learn that it's Funniest Home Videos, not Cruelest Home Videos.

  

I HATE ‘YO MAMA’ JOKES!!!!!

Leiry and Reily are two class clowns who have a history of saying jokes. But today, they said some pretty mean ‘Yo Mama’ jokes. “Yo mama is so fat that her bellybutton gets home 15 minutes before she does.” Leiry teased. “Yo mama is so fat that when she was diagnosed with a flesh-eating disease, the doctor gave her ten years to live.” Reily countered. “Yo mama is so fat that when she wears a yellow raincoat, people yell ‘taxi!’” remarked Leiry. “Yo mama is so ugly that her birth certificate contained an apology letter from the condom factory.” mocked Reily. “Yo mama is so ugly that that your father takes her to work with him so that he doesn't have to kiss her goodbye.” Leiry teased. “Yo mama is so ugly that she tried to take a bath and the water jumped out!” replied Reily. Little did they know that Ingrid was walking by but when she heard them saying ‘Yo Mama’ jokes; she was very offensive by that. She loved her momma, what’s the matter with that? How dare someone made up those jokes about their mothers. That is just cruel. So very cruel, bet their mothers had done so much for them. That is what she hates, the ‘Yo Mama’ jokes. Nobody says that, noooooobody! “Yo mama has so much hair on her upper lip that she braids it.” called Leiry. “Yo mama is so hairy that Bigfoot wants to take HER picture!” Reily countered. “Yo mama is so hairy that she looks like she has Buckwheat in a headlock.” mocked Leiry. “Yo mama is so dark that she spits chocolate milk!” ranted Reily. “Yo mama is so dark that she went to night school and was marked absent!” teased Leiry. “Yo mama is so dark that she has to wear white gloves when she eats Tootsie Rolls to keep from eating her fingers.” rambled Reily. It didn’t stopped as Ingrid was getting closer. “Yo mama is so old that her birth certificate says ‘expired’ on it.” mocked Leiry. “Oh yeah? Yo mama is so old that that when she was in school there was no history class.” remarked Reily. “Yo mama is so old that I told her to act her own age, and she died.” countered Leiry. “Yo mama is so old that she knew Burger King while he was still…” They both were bonked on the head, both by Ingrid who exclaims humorously, “I hate YO MAMA jokes!!!!!” Leiry and Reily couldn't believe this, “What? Why?” They asked. “My mama is in her 50’s, she complains on how she gets old! And she’s fat and tan, and doesn’t feel PRETTY enough! You insult my own mother? You must die!!!!” Ingrid cried hilariously. And she walked away, leaving the boys 

Most Annoying Person Ever

Annoying people, don’t you hate them? They wear size 5 shoes, they make a stupid face when they don't understand something, and who consequently are making a stupid face all the time, they have the most annoying voices. The kinds who latch onto you and rant about everything they can think of until your ears bleed. They talk loudly in public places about their personal problems. People who repeat themselves or talk to you as if you were 4 years old. They think they can sing, but who really can't. Whoever decided that The Merchant of Venice was somehow inappropriate to study in school. Their mothers let their ‘manchild’ screaming in stores, spending their entire summer vacation standing around in their yards and screaming at the top of their lungs, mimes, say ‘nucular’ instead of ‘nuclear.’ These kinds of people who continuously call you ALL THE FREAKING time and don't get the hint you DON'T want to talk. Take Sabrina’s classmate, Basil Hank for example. He maybe be diagnosed with autism however he doesn't have the right to annoy almost everyone else. Basil picks on Sabrina. If Sabrina presses the elevator button, trying to be nice but Basil got aggravated. “Don’t press the elevator button!” He said loudly in her ears. Or when he compliments her shoes like a hundred times, “I like Sabrina’s shoes, they’re my favorite brand called Road Runners.” This guy was going between liking Sabrina as a friend, then annoying the hell out of her, and when Sabrina blows off steam by how annoyed she is; Basil gets upset, not realizing that he’s annoying her. It really was irritating. Sabrina had been dealing with this guy from 5-6 years, or 7 despite the New Year and how they are nearly graduating. It’s been hard but Sabrina had to look on the bright side. When they graduate this year; she won’t have to deal with him anymore. But sadly for Sabrina, she is kind of annoying to her younger brother. 

Freak Girl Online Diary--Chapter 2

Chapter 2: The Horrible Teen Years and the Bittersweet Struggle of Sanctuary 

My teen years was no coming of age ordeal. I was always childish, daydreaming, not being like everybody else. I wasn’t popular, nor was I an outcast too much either. I hanged out with the wrong crowd and my so-called friends ditched me. And it went on for at least when I was 13, to 14, and finally to 15 years of age. The story is so alarming, so unspeakable, that I can’t believe I’m writing this. But here it goes……

After agonizing in home school (It wasn’t too long, but yeah I hated it!), I finally went to middle school. However, no matter what occurred to me, my meltdowns were the same. They worsened. The more I got in trouble, the more I got abused by my father. My father held grudges the longest against me! I hate that, which was my biggest fears. I always fear that if I anger someone, this person would get angry and never talk to me again. In the aftermath out of this; my teachers weren’t so empathetic, they told me though to take medication. I made friends but it didn’t go too well. One of my friends try to help conquer my ‘fear’ by coaxing me to go to the movies. I was reluctant, because I had my ‘trauma’ all ready of movies. I’d already seen Monters Inc., Finding Nemo, Hey Arnold!, and Power Puff Girls. I hate how the theatres on how loud and blaring it is. I always made excuses to her, not wanting to go. It was the same with my parents—they all want me to deal with it. In this middle school, my class did a dumb, irksome, and sugar coated song. I did a solo of a cover son. I regret it later, guilty for being selfish. In this stupid school was purgatory. They had these small rooms, there was nothing but a desk and a chair. They would put kids in there if they had a meltdown or if you want to be by yourself. At the start, I didn’t mind but then I felt lonely and wanted to talk to someone however no one didn’t want to talk to me or acknowledge.

Depressed and angry as I blame myself for all the people I hurt; I started cutting my hair. I know, I know, it’s weird. But it was better than mutilating my arm and leaving bloody gashes across my wrists. My parents were overwhelmed and furious, so I had to go to a hair salon to get it properly cut. Anytime I’d got in trouble, I cut my hair all over again. My parents thought I was doing this for attention, but in truth I wasn’t trying to get attention. All I was doing was repenting, weird huh? But then again, I didn’t know what repentance looked like, doesn’t prophets fast for days and pray to God? Yeah, that wasn’t too good for me. I did not know why I cut my hair but then I found the answer, it was not cool yet it was better than slitting my wrists. And taking that awful medication, it made me over-weighted and hungry all the time. One time, my dad picked me up from school as he surprised me with French Fries. I was so starving but despite the medication, I ate so fast. My father gently scolded me to not to eat so fast. I tried, I really did, but I couldn't help it. He told me a second time to not eat so fast. I really wasn't playing, I was trying but that stupid medication was making me scarf it down faster. Then, my father had to go and open that big cake hole mouth of his, "STOP STUFFING YOUR FAT FACE!!!!" I stopped eating the fries, I was shocked over what he yelled at me. I didn't know whenever to cry or lash back but I felt like I'd been stabbed in the heart. Later when we got home, I was mad at him for what he said and he didn't apologize. I must've glared at him, he was angry and decided to punish me. Really? You're going to do that after you called me a 'fat face'? Geez, my father was such an ass like that. He's not an honest person I say. 

I went to another school eventually. Thinking I would find a safe haven, but yet again another disaster occurred. In the beginning, I made some friends and the teachers were nice at first and met my first crush. But slowly, I became a bullied victim around the ages of 13 to 14. It was one hell of a nightmare. The more different I was, boys targeted me for my writing. I was a ‘plagiarist songwriter’ (though I didn’t realize that I was copy-writing other songs that I love it but in reality, I didn’t know how to create my own songs). It was the unwanted attention that the bullies were attracted to me, they always asked me constantly ‘What’cha writing about?’ They laugh at me, pick on me. And they knew I was afraid of balls (No! Not a man’s balls but basketballs were the ones that I feared.) as they threatened to throw one, I cowered in fear and they laughed as they walk away from me. Jerks! One of the bullies was a black mane curly haired teen boy who pesters me. He was short, he was Spanish but he was white skinned. He one time flashed his butt at me. In my general direction. Yup, genius. Nice of you to flash your ass towards a lady bro. I should’ve kicked it. What a screw ball school it was! Anyway, moving on. I befriend some girls, who talked to me. They want to get to know me, they were rude and interrupted by ranting. But then, one of them betrayed me by spreading an awful, untrue rumor. Saying I was writing a song about a boy I like but it wasn’t true and thought every thing almost was a joke to her. Jerk off. My songs were about crushes on anime boys. I didn’t want to tell, I could some people didn’t know what anime was. 

But some found out about my love for anime and made fun of me. Well, actually I was bored and researched on Pokemon and my teacher humilated me. Then my friends teased  me in a horrible manner. They weren't true friends, they didn't get me and I stopped hanging out with them. The teachers and staff, they weren’t helpful, this stupid school wasn’t programmed to stop the bullies. One of my teachers was an old and cranky man. I once beg him about the bullies but he was flat out ignoring me as well as having cotton balls in his ears. Another teacher was a guy who made dumb, sarcastic, and personal jokes about sex. Some people laughed, me? It was too much! Bastard. I hated this school, I was sick of it. I always fake sick and sometimes I have to stay home. I felt guilty a little later because I should've told my mother. Sometimes I cut classes because I hate it. I hated this stupid school, I hated the bullies, I hated the teachers, and the staff who didn't help me with me being bullied. Fianlly, I told my parents and they told me that I could go to a Christian school. Not really a Catholic education, but something different. I was thrilled to hear this, I didn't talk to anyone that I wasn't coming back at all. Once the year was over, I left behind the school which was a living hell and to find my living heaven. Wanna hear more? It's bittersweet, but it might be a 'happy ending'. Well, sort of. My new life at this Christian school wasn’t so bad. But there was some flaws that made me uncomfortable: A type of class would play a movie as a part of a 'lesson'. But if you ask me, it was more like entertainment. Oh, the trauma. The laughter. My face all pink from my cheeks after they were implanting on the side of my face. My hair disheveled. How I still loathed the sound of laughter, I was still uptight. How more misbehaved I got. Then one of my teachers noticed and talked to my mother. 

How did I believe in God? It sounds scary, it's nothing personal but something that scared the heck out of me straight. There was a video, a Christian one, which talks about Hell in a letter. To Zach from Josh. It started off with the guy, Josh, who says in the letter that he died and how he was standing in line. But as the person in front starts to find his name, it wasn't in it and Josh was being pulled away. He asked what was going on but he was told that those who didn't believe in Jesus were going to Hell. Then, the guy was being put in a dark room and in that room; he thought about his friend--Zack--who was a Christian. But his friend always brushed off about the whole thing about Jesus. Just then, the dark room opens. The guy--Josh--was being pointed and dragged into the pits of fire and brimstone. Hearing the panic made me scared out of my wits. I never knew what Hell was. But the way it sounds, oh no! And I listened to it again a second time and that's when, call me crazy, I had communications with God. He somehow light a way for me and lead me onto a life that I've wanted. I prayed a lot, I accepted Jesus as my savior, and became anew. I started to study from the Bible, I started to learn about Jesus's life, and all the other Biblical stories. King David, Moses, and other religious tales. 

The friends I made were horrible to meet. Forget the living hell of my previous school, this place was all right but it was sad that these people were once nice to me, despite the face that I was a messed up and distraught. But I want to be part of them, to be normal. To be accepted. But alas, I was rejected. One was harsh to me, the other ignored me, some were mean snarks. Sooo, I stopped hanging out with them. I lost more friends for my behavior was getting more and more bad by the minute. I was rebellious, I went on a bus once with a friend and got in trouble. More punishments, more beatings from my father. I got off my medication, thanks to the school's encouragement. I have to give them more encouragement for that because I was sick of being fat and always hungry, always irritable. Here's another talke to tell you guys, and this is unbelievable from my point of view. The retired dean and founder of the Christian school I went to was a madwoman of all sorts. She was a fundamentalist Christian, believing that the world was coming to the end. Christ was coming back and the Devil will claim himself to be the Messiah, ruling the world. Take the mark or die for your faith in Christ. Originally I believed it, accepted it...But then panic roused through me. Do I want a world of eternal bliss in the New Heaven and New Earth? Like there's no pain, no sorrow? I mean, don't get the wrong way but in my opinion. It's too much for me, I want my pain to be ease but being happy and in a peaceful world all the time? No, I couldn't. I believe in God but this? Not really. 

Movies with crowds--I hate them! Why? Well, it is nothing to do with hypersensitivity sounds and no need to deny it. Here are some reason why: First of all I hate it when people talk during a film when you try to watch and listen. Those people are loudly obnoxious, they don't care if people are trying to observe. Second, I hate when I go to the movies, find a total mess with food. Bleh, but no, the loud noises are too much for me! Earlier in my middle school horrendous days: My mother, Valerie, couldn't stand it being around my father, Oren, so she went away with her a friend name Deiondra and her son, Meyneke 'Meick'. We knew these two since childhood however there has been some things I've noticed. Meick has been using my older brother, Harry, for his videos. After Harry did a voice-over video project of the president, Thomas Jeffrerson, Harry became known as TJ the Rapper. Harry was almost a legend of school however Harry didn't want to do it anymore. He didn't want to go outside, he simply didn't do anything but played video games and watch stuff on his iPod. Meick was a jerk to my older brother--and to my little brother Jimmy. Jimmy hated Meick's put downs and he thought I was weird! Man, it was so bad with being with Deiondra. Deiondra just lost her husband, who had liver problems and died (In truth, he himself was an alcoholic so that's what happened to him). Deiondra was miserable and drank a lot. Every time she was drunk; she was mean. Saying how my mother looked bad with her hair up. How we were losers. How this and that. I hated when she smokes, which affected my allergies though I was trying to be a great comfort to her. 

One night, I was offered to go with her for a sleepover. My mother was unsure about this but I was too excited. But during that time there, Deiondra was drunk but I didn't noticed. I was talking and joking with her however I noticed something was wrong. I was lying on an air mattress, she came over and started to get on top, for a moment I thought she'd might hurt me. I got away and realized she went on the mattress. I tried to talk to her but she was too intoxicated so I called my mother and told her what was going on. That was a long time ago, my mother didn't talk to her or hang out with her. Deiondra's drunk behavior was too much and my Mom had to live a positive life. So, that's what she did. After my older brother graduated; Deiondra went to New York with her so-called lover. That was the last time we ever heard about her. But never again. Back in 2011: My father's physical abuse lessen but his verbal and emotional abuse did not stopped. My mother hated it, she tried to deny it. And don't ask me how the other teachers knew what went on with my mother but they did. Dad came by one day at some school thing and talk to one of the staff embers about how he always goes in his room all the time and not watch TV with his wife. My mom was so mortified for what he did, she was angry. She later told Dad that she never said anything like that. 
The new principal found out of the 'monster' my father was, for she had been through a domestic violence relationship herself. So, she talked to my mother and my mother was starting to get it. So, my mother decided to do something once she understood what was going on and what she could do. 

My father was constantly picking on Harry, who hasn't been coming out because he himself couldn't stand Dad. This comes from the man, who wanted us to get a dog and we eventually got one. A Shih Tzu. Anyways, I'm getting off track. Dad and Harry got into a horrible argument and then, Dad told him that he'd kicked him out. My mother decides to find a new house for all of us, but we had to make it look like Harry was moving out. Previously, Dad also accused the rest of us of neglecting the dog, when the truth was we were taking care of the dog but we had our own lives too. He thought of taking the dog for himself, however I don't think our dog liked my father so much. But when my father found out what was going on, he suddenly changed. Well, that lasted for a minute. My father tried to make changes and try to prove himself he would like to do a family plan however we were still moving out. So, with no getting anywhere; Dad hugged me and my brothers goodbye. He went out the door, and took the car--with all my brothers' stuff. That's when we had to call the principal, who bonded with my mother, and she told us she'd be right there. She instructed us to get things packed and get out of there. So, that's what we did and we moved into our new home. We didn't get the furniture but there was no time. We took everything we could, we could take the dog with us. The next morning, we got the rest stuff in the big van. Dad was away at work. But we still didn't have my older brother's stuff so Jimmy, who became "Daddy-kins' favorite" because Jimmy was nicer to him thank Harry and I were. 

However, Dad tried to steal our second car. Jimmy and I witnessed this as we encouraged Mom to call the police. She was like, "Are you sure?" She seemed skeptical, I was like: "Mom! Don't let him take the car!" And she was convinced. The cop came, he came and talk to my father. My father acted like a child and eventually, Dad went away in his car (The one he borrowed from Grandma Ginger Donovan) and we went with a friend. During that time, I was quiet. I was stunned over what just happened. Mom noticed, she asked me if I was OK. I denied it but she wasn't backing out and I eventually gave in as she hugged me. I cried, saying that I couldn't believe my father would do such a thing. Later in a few days, Jimmy eventually got the stuff back but Pop was still being manipulative. My mother refuse to let me be part of the divorce court or anything to do with my fathe. I was at first upset but then I learned why: My mother’s biggest fear is that our father would manipulate us, turning me and my brothers against my mom. But you wanna know something? I always have to ask mother questions after what my father would tell me, asking if any of it was true. She would explain the whole story, and I’d get mad at Dad for trying to poison me. I read and research from domestic violence to child abuse. I realize what was going on. So, I was trying to find people who had been through things that related to child abuse and domestic violence. But lost interest because I wanted to live a positive life. 

OK, well. That parts over. Now, it's time for me to tell you on the changes I went through. The nightmares of my childhood I had are in the past. Now, it was time for me to look into the future and its new beginnings. 

The Pride (Otaku Version)

This is a cover of Five Finger Death Punch's song, but it's an otaku version. Pretty weird, ain't it? 

Heyy heyy heyy yaaa [x6]

Japan

Tokyo

Pokemon

Digimon

Beyblade

Shinzo

Elfen Lied

One Piece

Naruto

Bleach

Fairy Tail

Soul Eater

Petit Cossette

GinTama

Dragon Ball

Full Metal Alchemist

I am

What you fear most

I am

What you need

I am

What you made me

I am

Anarchy

I'm not selling out

I'm buying in

I will not be forgotten

This is my time to shine

I've got the scars to prove it

Only the strong survive

I'm not afraid of crying

Everyone does it sometimes

Life never favored weakness

Welcome to the pride

Blood Lad

Death Note

Attack on Titan

Shaman King

Yu gi Oh!

Reborn!

FLCL

Eureka Seven

Blue Exorcist

Red Data Girl

Karneval

Sailor Moon

Gundam

I am

What you fear most

I am

What you need

I am

What you made me

I am

Anarchy

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Chorus 

Heyy heyy heyy yaaa [x3]

Only the strong survive

Heyy heyy heyy yaaa [x3]

Welcome to the pride