Spittoon--Chapter 10

The chapter title, it talks about something that was so two thousand and late for me. I'm kind of embarrassing to admit this. I seriously am! Part of this, in Karina's perspective, is based off something in my life that I never told anyone. And I'm really humiliated about it, sort of and I have no feelings for any boy but it's all in my head and I'm making myself crazy. Anyways, enjoy it...sort of.....--KatDon

Chapter 10: Confessions

Tamsin and Mateo are working with the kids again however they do not like the others mistreating the children of harming them because they cannot 'behave right'. That's when Tamsin decided that she had enough of this. She stopped the employee, "What are you doing?" She demanded. "This child is not behaving right." claimed the employee. "This is not right, just because they are not behaving right; you don't have to mistreat them like this." Tamsin argued. "How else are they going to behave?" The employee debated back. "But this isn't right!" Tamsin said. "You were born different, right? How were you treated? Like this, am I right? Well, it is what it is." said the employee. Tamsin sighed, arguing wasn't getting them anywhere. Something had to be done, but what? She and Mateo tried talking to the headmistress, however she has the defensive attitude. Tamsin and Mateo seemed upset by this, this didn't end well. Now they were running out of options, something....There has to be something, Tamsin did not want these kids to suffer trauma like she did. No more, if she doesn't do something and if nobody listens; she will have no choice but she and Mateo will have to quit. 

In the meantime; Selene was pouting in the ward which is her room, Endymion enters with a tray of food. "Here Selene, I brought you something to eat." said Endymion. Selene pouting, "I'm not hungry." She said grumpily. Endymion sighed deeply, "Come on, you gotta eat something or..." He started to say but Selene tipped the tray with her foot and it fell to the floor. Endymion is shocked, he glared at her and said: "Hey, Selene!" "SCREW THE FOOD, I SAID I'M NOT HUNGRY!!!!! I'M MAD AT YOU, ASSHOLE!!!" screamed Selene, she was very upset. Tears running down her face, she was acting like a child. Waving her fists, kicking around and then she pouted. "What? Why?" Endymion asked. "You took me away from Daddy? You drugged my food and I wake up to be with a couple of freaks! WHY AM I BROUGHT HERE?!" demanded Selene. Endymion sighs once again, "Your father had plans to make you into one of his guinea pigs!" He said. "Liar!!!! He told me he was going to take me to a fun place!" Selene whined. "He's the liar, I'm telling you--He is up to no good." Endymion claimed. Selene looked away, crossing her arms and she made a sullen face. "I hate you, leave me alone." She said in a grumpy tone. "Selene, I..." Endymion started to say but Selene screamed again, "LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" Endymion walked out and shut the door. He felt bad for making her unhappy, but maybe someday....No, why was he thinking about this? Meanwhile; Karina has been feeling strange lately, it was supposed to be a girl thing. This happened 14 days before her 'time', this strange feeling was something....lascivious. Scared; she questions her mother and her mother assures her that it was normal. To express her lascivious feelings, she wrote about them in a story about a girl name Brighid and so far, it's not so amorous...At first: 

He looked like a matured young teen at around 14-15. He seemed cute, good looking. Brighid felt weak in the knees, she forced to straighten them and went over to give him a smile. When the guy saw Brighid standing there smiling awkwardly, he glared at her dubiously. “What?” The guy asked. Brighid felt really stupid, “Uh, what?” She said nicely. “You’re just standing there, what do you want?” The boy asked. Brighid completely forgot what she came for but she remembered. “Oh! I want to know your name.” She replied. The guy smirked at her, “Pfft, like I’d tell you loon.” He said, as he strolled away. Brighid is stunned but she runs over to him and stops him. “Loon? Now wait just a minute! I wasn’t ready, I was fashioning on being funny and cute but I totally blew it. Can I have a second chance? Please?” She asked with pleading eyes. The boy looked at her but he seemed interested, “You wanna know my name? It’s Aquila Dargon.” Brighid smiled, “I’m Brighid Milan.” She said. Aquila was awestruck by this, “Brighid, huh. I’ll remember that.” He said and turned to walk away. Brighid felt her heart beating, “Score one, for the girl!” She thought happily. 

She skipped away gleefully but she stopped when she saw something there. "A skateboard!" Brighid cried.  She said. She starts to do cool tricks on it. "All right, let's do this! You spin my head right round, right round, when you go down, when you go down down. You spin my head right round, right round, when you go down, when you go down down." She belted as she did the skateboard tricks. "A couple more! Buddy you're a boy make a big noise, Playin' in the street gonna be a big man someday. You got mud on yo' face, you big disgrace. Kickin' your can all over the place. Singin' we will we will rock you, we will we will rock you." She stopped again and said to herself, “One more! Say-ay-ay, that you're down to roll-oll-oll, now we're stayin' up late-ate-ate, 'Cause you already know. Like Oh! When the lights get turned down low, wanna see you lose control. I just need to know that, Baby you could ride with me. Like Oh! 'Cause tonight we won't let go, and the world won't be so cold. I just need to know that, Baby you could ride with me. Baby you could ride, Baby you could ride, Baby you could ride with m--" "ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR FRICKING MIND?!" A voice cried. Brighid yelped, "Aaah!" She fell on her face. The boy looked guilty and came over to the girl, concern that she fell on her face as it could be bruised. "Are you OK?" He asked nervously, red in the face. Brighid is stunt by this boy. "No, I'm sorry. I didn't know this was your board." She explained. The boy looked shy, "Yeah, m-my bad! I-I-I'm sorry! But, don't touch it--I mean! I mean, be careful!" He stuttered. Brighid looked at the boy. "Are you OK?"  She asked. The boy laughs nervously. "Nah. Nothin' wrong with me." He claims. 

Brighid looked at him with a suspicious look, this girl was making him uncomfortable so he decides to approach this more gently. "I--Um, I just thought those moves were pr--pretty cool." He said. Brighid beamed. "Thanks. I've been skateboarding for a while." She explains briefly. This surprise the boy, "Really? W--Wow!" He stuttered. "Yeah." Ophelia nodded. She grew more suspicious of the boy's behavior. "What's wrong?" Ophelia asked. "Just--s--sh--shy!" The boy stammered. Smiling coyly; Brighid placed an arm around his neck and pulled him towards her. The boy blushed, nervous as he was when he stared at the leering girl. “Come Kitty, You're so pretty.  Don't go Kitty! Stay with me! Play with me!” She said in a sing-song voice. The boy blushed, trying not to feel this girl’s arm coiling around his waist. “What’s the matter, kitty?” teased Brighid. "My name is not 'kitty', it's Gwydion Tigrio."

Karina stopped writing for a moment and decided to do something different, so she finished writing the dialogue and wrote something different:

Brighid was shocked to see that there were monsters. However she better look at them: They were large, hideous, manlike creatures! Psyche avoid from the creatures, not wanting to be spotted. But then, one lunged at her after it spot her swiftly in the shadows. It try to grab Brighid but she was quick. However, she somehow can hear the thoughts of the creature and begins to talk to it. "You--you want to eat me? No, I won’t let you!" said Brighid to the monster. She flexed her hand and uses her symbiotic powers to kill this monster. The monster was suffocated by the symbiote and then finally; it exploded! There was a mass of beige substances splattered all over her! 

Brighid was stunt for a while before a grin broke over her face. She giggled to herself, "I did it! Ew....I really did it! I can't believe it! I just nobody saw--" She turns around as her smile faded. "--That."What she saw was Gwydion, who looked horrified at Brighid. He saw it, he saw her kill that beast. "Oh crap." Brighid thought. "Busted! How do I get myself out of this?" She slowly smiled kindly, "Hello there---" she greeted but the boy lunged at her, "AAAAAAAHHHHHH!" He cried. The boy begin to claw at her like a wild man. Trying to punch her but Brighid restrained. "Hey! Hey!" She protested. "Stop! Cease! Take it easy! Will you stop?! I am not going to hurt you!" Brighid held Gwydion's fists away from her. "Who are you?!" The boy demanded. "It's Brighid. I come in peace. Here, I am not going to hurt--" She reaches over to touch his face but Gwydion recoiled away. "Get away, no! Don't you dare--Don't--" But he was helpless, Brighid was calm as she stroke her hand on his face. Then, she leans over and kisses him on the lips. In the midst, Gwydion broke free from the liplock, "Argggggggghhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!" He shouted. Gwydion charged at her. "You're right, you're right. I should've done that. It was wrong to kiss you but it's just a kiss--" Brighid said quickly as possible. "Never. Again!" Gwydion warned. "Right, sorry! Sorry!" Brighid apologized. "'Less I say 'o." muttered Gwydion. Brighid looked at him, "What you say?" She asked. "Nothing!" replied Loki, defensively. Brighid held up her hands, "OK, OK, Take it easy. I thought you said something but never mind." She claimed. Gwydion nodded, "Are you an angel? A demon?" He asked. “Not at all, I just…I don’t know what I am but I can tell you one thing. I am no demon nor angel. I come in peace and came to know you. Please, let me explain what’s going on.” Brighid explained. At once; Gwydion lowered his weapon and nodded. “OK. I’ll trust you. But if you pull anything, I’ll kill you.” He said. Brighid nods, obeying to his word. 

There was a door that opened and someone walked in. "You're late, newcomer." The instructor shouted. Aquila stood there, "I apologized, sir. I have no excuse for being tardy." Aquila replied. The instructor looks at them and then turns to the others, "Everyone; please meet our fresh meat rookie--Aquila Dargon." He announced. Gwydion stopped dead in his tracks, "What? Aquila?" He thought. He couldn't believe it, Aquila is...alive? "Please, make him feel welcome." said the instructor. Then he ordered the others to resume with the training. Later, Gwydion was in the men's room by the sink. His hands washed his face as he took deep breaths. "This isn't happening....This isn't happening. He should be dead. Dead. Impossible!" He chanted to himself. There was a toilet flush, shifting sounds, and one of the stall doors opening. Aquila walks out but stops to smirk at Gwydion, "Gwydion." said Aquila. Gwydion glares at him, "Aquila." He sat up straight and continued, "You made a good recovery. Thought that bullet would be deep enough to kill you." Gwydion countered. Aquila sneered, "Miracles happen, don't they?" He said. "They do, but you are no miracle. You are a normalcy. I am the only who knows about your secret. you psycho!" Gwydion said. Aquila looked away, "I know that." He said. "And for the record, don't even try to see Sif. She has found herself a better man, she doesn't know who you are. Not even my family knows, but still you are not allow to see or speak to her." Gwydion spat. Aquila seemingly didn't looked unfazed by this, "Fine then. I have no time looking for pretty girlfriends. I have matters to take care." He said. "My soul will be burning later." And he left, but not before hearing Gwydion cried out: "To hell with your soul!" In training; Aquila pushed on, he managed to get stronger. Gwydion was angry that Aquila went up higher in the ranks by all he was trained for. 

Gwydion is stressed over Aquila trying to take the top. Gwydion is still in mourning for his love, thinking about her. That beautiful maiden...She was so sweet, but poor thing had to die so young. He shed a few tears. But he decided to try and go calm down however he saw someone eating food, it was Brighid. During her stay; she is given food. The way she eats them is quite...provocative! At breakfast was sausages. She snacked on fruits like peaches, strawberries, bananas, and cherries. A hot dog with a drink and straw. And dessert? Chocolate, fingers pastries, candy bars, Jello pudding cups, popsicles, vanilla ice cream, and whipped cream. Ophelia eats something really slowly and suggestively, even when she ties the stems and pops the tiny red cherries into that rosebud mouth of hers. Gwydion watches her from the doorway and then he leaves but Gwydion slides down against the wall, he has his knees up and his head touches the wall. He places his head into his arms as one of his hands go in between and mingles down there. Gwydion snaps out of the daydream, panting. He looked around as he sighs. "Crap, what the hell is wrong with me?" He whispered. He gets up and walks away. Later; Brighid is seen guided through riding a horse, by a trainer. She was teaching her how to, Gwydion watches Brighid but someone approaches beside and behind him. “So, where did this girl come from?” Gwydion turned to see it was Aquila, he shrugs as he turns back to Brighid, “I don’t know. She just killed that ogre without touching it.” said Loki. “You sure about that?” asked Aquila. “I know what I saw.” Gwydion confirmed, “I’m not crazy. I didn’t make things up.” “I believe you.” Aquila said. Gwydion looked at Brighid, who held onto the reins as the trainer guides her to ride the horse before letting go. Brighid gallops on the horse, she felt a little scared but her fears turn into such excitement and she spreads her arms out like wings. "Who is this girl? An angel? A demon? Did you know?" Aquila asked. "How the hell I should know? You should find out for yourself." Gwydion noted. They continued to watch her, smiling like a star but they don't know the hurt and the fear she has been masking. 

Brighid was lying on the grass, her hands behind her head and she was resting. he could hear four feet and two shadows fall upon her. "How can you be so relax like this?" Gwydion asked. Brighid's eyes opened as she saw him and Aquila looking down at her. Brighid sat up a little as she said, "The queen is the dream, the dream is the queen but the queen is puking dreams that were infecting in her brain but now she's kissing the rain." She stretched, "Life is not all about kissing in the rainstorm." Aquila put in. Brighid looked at him. "I don't see you guys pulling out your hair while accepting the proposal. My life was about to change, I was aiming towards high achievement. But in this life, I am sad inside. I am unsatisfied praying and waiting " said Brighid wistfully. "What do you mean?" asked Gwydion. Brighid smiled, she bent her head over to the guys and said, "See it this way; One life pretending to be the one that got the luck. And everybody saying, 'Brighid wants to be this, Brighid wants to be that.' People like to tell you what you're gonna be. But you know something, It's not my problem if you don't see what I see...And I do not give a damn if you don't believe or not." explained Brighid.  "It doesn't matter what people want you to be. You just need to be you, not some daydreamer." Aquila remarked. Brighid was annoyed, "My problem, Aquila." She snapped, went back laying on the grass as she rolled her eyes. "Look, it's my problem on how fast I will succeed. Don't you see? Nothing comes for bountiful. They say I'm a control freak. It's my business if I feel the need to wanna pack up and run away. my problem if I have no friends and feel I want to die!!!" exclaimed Brighid. Then she put her face in her hands. 

"Do you? I think your main business if your marbles up in your head are about to get lost in the fog of fear and dreams of guilt and shame. Don't talk to any of us about your problems of being a toxic leader or running away. I'll bet you had an average life like some people." ranted Aquila. "Tell me, this then..." Brighid said. Sitting up; Psyche looked back at the boys. Her hair swept half across her face. Her eyes were shimmering, her hair cast a glowing sparkling clouds of luminosity. "Are you satisfied with an average life?" She asked. The boys were enthralled for a moment, "What?" They asked. Brighid stood up as her eyes became a starry night. "Do I need to lie to make my way in life? Contented with an easy ride? Once you cross the line, will you be satisfied?" She said. Then, Brighid noticed that Gwydion and Aquila's facial expression, "What? What's with your faces guys?"She asked, totally unaware of what's going on. Gwydion and Aquila looked away quickly, "Uh, nothing!" They said. Brighid giggled, "OK, then. Just saying." She said, not realizing she was bathing in a sun glow. Brighid was about to leave when all of a sudden, she turned back and said, "You guys interest me. I'm obsessed with the mess that's your rivalry, it's really intense." Then, Brighid walked away. Gwydion and Aquila scowling at one another. Then they looked away in annoyance. Subsequently; Aquila begins to remember the day when he was shot by Gwydion: Gwydion had found out Aquila had killed his love and freaked out: "It's you!" He yelled. Aquila looked up, "Gwydion!" "You? How--" Gwydion stammered. "Gwydion, let me explain--!" Aquila begged, but Gwydion interrupts, "No! Don't! This is for my love!" He held up a pistol and charge at him. "AQUILA!" Gwydion cried. "GWYDION, NO!!" screamed Aquila. There was a fatal gunshot!

In the living room; Brighid is writing in a journal, her legs inclining away from Aquila who was watching her. Just then, for fun, he snatches the journal from her. "Hey, give it!" Brighid chasing him, but Aquila wouldn't give her back her journal and Brighid was getting angry but she was being playful. "Give it!" She jabs Aquila in the ribs. "Ah!" He yelped, clutching his ribs. Brighid giggled mischievously as she got her journal back. Brighid looks at Aquila reading, he looked engrossed in it. "Oooh, what's that?" Brighid asked. Aquila closes it immediately, "Nothing." He said too quickly. Brighid smirks at him, "Aww, is it a porno?" She teased. Aquila glares at her, "No. It's not." He said.  "What is it?" Brighid asked. She placed her feet on Aquila's lap, Aquila felt a twinge of pleasure through him. "It's about--About--the feeling of , concupiscent. The kind you get from looking at someone pretty." explained Aquila, stammering in his speech. "Really?" Brighid asked, her feet rubbed on his thighs. Aquila gritted his teeth, feeling the erogenous feelings going though him. "Yeah. When you see someone pretty, you become someone different that....That you don't know who you are anymore." He explained. Brighid sat up as her feet were not on his lap but her ankles were rested on his lap. "I see, why don't you elaborate that on me. I'll be happy to give it all to you." teased Brighid. Aquila is annoyed as he pushed her feet off him, Brighid tackles him as Aquila restrains her but they found themselves staring at each other. Brighid leans at him, inclining to kiss him but instead gives him a bite on his neck. "Ah!" Aquila gasped. He pulled away to clutch his neck, glaring at her. Brighid gets up from the sofa but turns back seductively to wink. She giggles at his perplexed and mortified face. 

Brighid and Gwydion are seated together while Aquila is seated alone. In a hallucination dream; Gwydion is seated on a carousel, kissing and groping Brighid. Aquila saw Gwydion kissing her, he looks away solemnly plotting and unwrapping a crude time bomb from his coat. Aquila, Gwydion, Brighid, and the carousel are blown up.

Aquila was so tired from the day today. So he fell asleep but on that night, he had a really a queer dream: A raining day, where people are holding umbrellas. Both Gwydion and Aquila sitting behind the fence. While everyone on the other side of the fence look at both boys with having a lack of emotion, it then cuts to both of them banging and hitting the fence to be let out. Both of the boys coming closer together, and eventually near the finishing of the second chorus, they kiss each other passionately, with the public looking at this with a poker face expression. The boys sitting with seemingly snow falling down, with the boys gently touching it. They both walk around corner and shows a place where the sun is breaking out of the clouds; they clasp hands and walk off together into it. Gwydion woke up, stunt at this. He was fazed, disgusted that he would have dreams about this. He could hear drums so he got ready and hurried to the training. "Dargon! You're late!" shouted the instructor.  Aquila panted, "I apologize, sir! I have no excuse for being late." He said, saluting. The instructor nodded, "All right, get down to training with Tigrio." He said, pointing over to Gwydion who was waiting. Aquila hurried over to Gwydion, "You look like crap, Aquila." remarked Gwydion. "Zip it, Gwydion!" Aquila said. The two of them spar against each other, Aquila is disgusted with himself for having that stupid dream. He felt himself sort of liking towards Gwydion but fought against it. Once it was over; Gwydion looks at him and asked, "What's wrong with you?" "Don't give me that, like I need consent from a lethal asshole like you!" Aquila exclaimed. "What? You got a thing for me?" joked Gwydion. "Pfft, in my dreams." Aquila scoffed. Gwydion looked at him with surprise. "Wait, what? You had a homo dream of us kissing?" Gwydion asked. Aquila glares at him, "Can it!"  He snapped. Slowly, Gwydion grinned at him. "Naughty boy, don't deny it. It's a dirty secret that you would stargaze about me. You knew it was wrong but you didn't mind, you were going to start sh.." He ranted. "Shut your mouth!" exclaimed Aquila. Gwydion looked at him smugly, "Did you stick me really good?" He taunted. 

Brighid looked around to see the colors in the air as she danced around, feeling magic in the air of how beautiful this place. However, she was daydreaming so much that she didn't watch where she was going. Because she bumped into someone else: "Aaah!" The person said. "Yipe!" Brighid yelped. Brighid and the other person stumbled down as Brighid cries, "Good Lor--Whoa!" Down, down they went but landed safely. "Hey, pal! What the hell?" Brighid demanded. "Sorry about that." The person said. He was a cutie, Brighid felt like a jerk to this totally attractive guy with glasses, which he was adjusting. "Hello...It's OK. I'm fine, it's no big deal." Brighid apologized. "You serious?" asked the boy. "Yeah, my bad. And I'm dead serious." confirmed Brighid. "Fascinating." The boy complimented. Brighid smiled, The boy realized he forgot to introduced himself. "Oh, sorry. Naoise Phoenix." He introduced. Brighid shake his hand, "Brighid Milan. Charmed!" She said.

Karina continued reading this more, it was going to be darker:

However she is being held hostage by the ogres, so Gwydion and Aquila allies with Naoise as they fought against the Eldritches. During the battle;  One of the ogres gouged her heart out. "Noooooooooooooo!!!!!!" cried Gwydion, Aquila, and Naoise. The ogres were cackling with glee but they wouldn't laugh for long. Brighid rise, her eyes were hollow and black with red pupils. She had blood coming from the whole in her chest. Her appearance was different: There were short ram horns, her hair became red like mahogany, her clothes matched her hair and her face was pinkish white. Gwydion couldn't believe this, Brighid...She was rising as some sort of undead being who was slaughtering the ogres in order to get her heart back. And she did kill them all, she butchered them. She beheaded them, and then she made their limbs go numb so she can split them apart in a grisly way. Gwydion and Aquila were shocked by this. They couldn't believe that someone like her would such things. Finally, Brighid faced the ogre who took her heart so Heart less Brighid put up a pretty good fight. She broke the creature's legs and the heart went up, Brighid caught in her hand and placed it back in her chest. The hole in her chest closed up and she turned back to normal. 

Gwydion, Aquila, and Naoise could only stare at her in amazement. Who was this girl? Whoever she was, she was nothing out of the ordinary.  Later, The four of them found themselves in meadow-like landscape. They run over a construction worker in the middle of the road. After breaking through another fence, The four of them climb to the roof of the truck and stand on top, Brighid & the boys are hugging each other and smiling.

Karina couldn't believe she wrote a book like this, she didn't want to show anyone as she was ashamed of her strange feelings. She has not have feelings like this to a boy, but she's whimsical so she really couldn't admit it. Hell, she doesn't have  a crush on any boy right now and has no time for boys now. She has to have complete focus on her life. Her dreams, to be a writer! In the meantime; Mordred and Gareth are settling the score after Mordred burnt all the witches:

"I’m grateful for your 'love'. Come on and we'll play this friendly match enthusiastically." said Mordred, smugly. "Yes, me too." Gareth accepted. "I’m going to make you look sharp, Gareth. I’m so bad at the game that your skill will shine like the brightest star in the darkest night." Mordred said. Gareth rolled his eyes, "You’re making fun of me." He said. "No, I swear I’m not." replied Mordred. They fought each other, Mordred strike Gareth but he didn't seemed to be unfazed. "That was one hit." claimed Mordred. Gareth shook his head, "No, it wasn’t." He said. Mordred looked at Tamsin for help, but Tamsin nodded as she gestured him that it was. "Well, let’s go on." Mordred said to Gareth, motioning him. Their battle continued, none of the two can't seem to take a breath for one second. Heart pumping, nerves wrecking. Blood and wounds from each of their strikes. "Another hit. What do you say?" Mordred said smugly. "You got me, I admit it." Gareth said. "Get ready for the third hit, Gareth. You’re just playing around. Come on, give me your best shot. I think you’re treating me like a child." replied Mordred. "Oh, You think so? Bring it." Gareth called. Mordred charges at him and strike Gareth in his shoulder. He is shocked of himself as he backs away. Gareth clutched his shoulder and stands over Mordred, "I’m the one, Mordred.  No medicine in the world can cure you. Your mother’s death has been poisoning your mind. The witches, your uncle are to blame. They got what they deserved. They mixed that poison themselves into the blood running through your veins. Please forgive me as I forgive you, Mordred. You’re not responsible for Lyonesse’s, and I’m not responsible for hers." He said. Gareth fell into unconscious and Mordred helps him to the medics, silently forgiving him.